Summer has begun.

We are all settled into our new place with the exception of a few boxes in my room which need to go into storage.

It's weird living here. Whenever we would come to New York it meant vacation so now that I'm here I feel like I'm on vacation all the time which is sort of bad because I need to get a job and go to school. I'm taking classes at the same college my mom did which is kind of cool.

I'm going back to Chicago for a weekend to find an apartment with Sam. I'm so excited. I so miss it. I feel more at home than I do here. Terrible, but true.

I really love living so close to family. I've never had that. Ever.

Alright I thought I was going to write this really long post about summer and life but I don't think I have much else to say plus I'm wiped out from yesterday. It was my cousins communion so we had a party after and we were all outside playing baseball and volleyball and eating ALL DAY. Don't get me wrong, it was awesome but I'm sore and tired haha

Easter isn't a huge Holiday in the Kulin household but it's my first real holiday away from my family. A little sad but it's ok because I'm going to Sarah's aunts in Naperville tonight to sleep over and celebrate with them.

Big changes are happening in my life.

My dad has "settled" for the New York job. It's not what he does but at this point a job is a job and he's been out of one for 2 years now. Which means we have to move to Long Island. I've never lived near my family let alone in the same house. My aunt and uncle have an apartment attached to their house and are nice enough to let us stay there until we get back on our feet.

This also means I will not be returning to Colorado for a long time. Maybe even ever. I don't know when I'll see Jordan or Miranda. It breaks my heart. I mean they're my best friends and I don't know when I'll see them. Sometimes phones just aren't enough. I doubt they'll ever come here because Jordan is afraid of planes and Miranda.. is Miranda.

This is just always on my mind now. I have Sarah here and it's awesome but we rarely see each other because she's always so busy. And Sam (my roommate) I guess she's my best friend at school. I have her but she hasn't known me that long and she doesn't know why I am the way I am. You know?

Ok. This is depressing.

I apologize.

4 more days

4 more days

4 more days

IIIIII am so stressed

I just like my new layout

A lot.

:)

My show is over.

That was seriously the best show I've ever seen/ been apart of. I'm so in love with it. I wish I could've been apart of it from the beginning. I'm so sad it's over but I get to have my life back. Even though my life is theatre.. It's a bittersweet moment. I'm excited to get sleep. I don't know when that's going to happen but eventually.

This semester is significantly harder. I don't know what I'm doing in 3 of my 5 classes including the one where my math teacher can't speak english. Um we live in America? Ugh it's so frustrating. I'm scared to death to go to acting every day because I'm the shyest person ever. I seriously want to cry every time I think of that class. Tomorrow I have to perform a monologue. I wish I would've waited to take that class. Too late now.

On a brighter note, Spring break.. FLORIDA! I get to relax with my favorite people :) I think thats the next time I can sleep because I'm going home this weekend to help finish pack and say good bye to Jordan and Miranda for a little while. This weekend is going to be rough. I feel bad for Sam for when I come back. I'm going to be a mess.

Ok I guess I have no where else to vent but this.

It's really pissing me off that there a crisis over in Haiti and all people keep talking about is the stupid Jay Leno and Conan thing. Like really? That is taking up your thought process instead of the poor people of Haiti. They already had a poor country and then this had to happen to them.

ALSO the celebrities keep saying "Go donate!" If every celebrity gave $500,000 of their precious millions they made by sitting on a movie set, Haiti would have enough to help everyone and help start rebuilding their country. Um we're in a recession and they're telling the unemeployed people to give money. Believe me, if I had the money I would gladly donate but truth is I don't.

Sandra Bullock gave a million dollars yesterday. Hey the rest of you, take notice.

I have to let it out some how..

I'll let the first of the blog world to know.

I have found the love of my life.

I didn't want to jinx it, but I think it's time to let the love be known.

We've only been together since september, but I have a feeling this could be the one.

The short time between now and then has been nothing but bliss.

Yes, I am talking about my love for the world of technical theatre. At Columbia, I have explored a few other areas of theatre and have decided I love all of it but I still want to be a stage manager. Stress every night (minus mondays and 2 matinee's) is what I live for. I tend to be calm in those situations which makes this job perfect for me. The money will be tight but I will be doing what I love and not many people can say that now a days. With this economy people are taking the jobs they can get to have an income. I still have 2 1/2 years so hopefully the economy will be bounced back by then. Although, the theatre hasn't taken too big of hit. People need to laugh in these times of sadness and theatre can provide that.

On that note, I did FANTASTIC in school if I do say so myself.

I sucked at school in high school. Literally. I don't think i got above a 2.7 gpa ever.

I'm proud to say I got my first 3.26. It makes a huge difference when you like what you're studying.

After telling my parents and family, there's no where else to gloat and I'm proud of myself so even though no one reads this I'm doing this for myself :)

Ps. I can't wait to go back - 15 days.

Pps. Wisdom teeth on tuesday. Not excited.