For the 8736383rd time this is pointless because Ali is the only one who reads this but it's break and I have nothing better to do. It's one of those nights on break where you stay up just because you can. And you're listening to music that reminds you of stuff. Happy, sad and all sorts of good stuff.

SO since I've posted.. I turned 21!

It would be even more exciting if I wasn't the only one of my friends who are 21 but you know what? It's okay. It's something to look forward to.

I have the best roommate ever.. I was at rehearsal on my birthday and I came back to a fully decked out apartment with streamers, confetti all over the place and balloons. And surprises all over the apartment. I LOVE surprising people so when people surprise me, it's the best thing ever. Then I went to dinner with Sam, Nicky and Sarah. It was small but they're all I need :)

This semester was hard. I had to read 2 plays a week, stage manage a play and have 14 credits. I was crazy busy but I met some amazing people that I will never forget. I got through it and so far I've passed everything.. but I still have two more grades to come in. I'm not terribly worried about them but there's always that possibility of disappointment and I just can't do that to my parents again.

I had maaaajor issues with Mike but whatever. I hate him. That's all I have to say about that.

I have the best friends in the world and I can't wait until I see them in SIX DAYS!! I haven't seen them since last december. We're spending New Years in a hotel in downtown Denver. It's going to be a fabulous night of fighting, singing and booze. If you know us, you know that's completely normal and I'm looking forward to it more than anything.

Going back to Denver is definitely going to be emotional. I don't know how I'm going to handle it. I'm just glad I'll have them with me :)

This is my first Christmas with my whole family in 10 years. CAN'T WAIT.

Those are the main events that have happened since September.

School is extremely hard this semester.

I'm stage managing on top of taking a 16 hour credit schedule.

Each of my classes have me reading a different book. Not textbook.. actual books. One class I had to buy eight plays for.

On thursdays I go from 10:30- 9:20 pm. That's a long day.

I have like 8 papers this semester which actually I think is pretty moderate.

I'm just overwhelmed and it's only the third week of school. This semester is going to make me or break me.

I just wanted somewhere to complain.

Yeah that's right.. I ran in Yankee stadium. That was a tough course. We had a lot of stairs to climb within those 3 miles but it was worth it. Even if you're not a Yankees fan, it's a cool experience. I was in awe the entire time. Especially when we immersed onto the field. As if we were players running on the field. They didn't let us on the grass obviously but I don't know I can't even describe this feeling right now. I had a little trouble with my feet going numb but no big deal.. the spirit of Yankees stadium kept me going. Having our family there to cheer us on was awesome. They're so supportive.

As a Yankees fan, this was one of the greatest days of my life. I will definitely never forget this feeling. We even got a medal :)

Well another 5K down.. maybe a 10K one day. I hope to run a marathon with my Daddy one day but I'm going to be honest. I don't think I have that type of motivation. I would love to but I don't know. Maybe.. A girl can dream right?

Those stairs killed me. I made friends with that lady next to me.

On the big screen in the stadium

Us on the warning track. Of course we had to take a picture. The family took this from the stands. Came out pretty nice and close

Run run run

Started on the lower level.. ran around that twice then went onto the warning track on the field for two laps then upstairs to the top level then all the way back down then ALL THE WAY UP AGAIN.. then to the finish. Felt like 10 miles but hey.. whatever maybe they were off in measuring.

Just in case someone stumbles across this.. I'm running a 5k for cancer research in Yankee Stadium! Pretty awesome. Anyway if you have a few dollars to spare and want to help a good cause here's the link to donate :)

http://www.drcrf.org/netcommunity/alysonpaigek

Sam came to visit!

I don't have any of the good pictures.. she does because I made her look like the tourist because I'm a New Yorker now.. psht tourists.

We had a great time. She was literally here for three days so we had to make the best of it. We went into Manhattan the first two days and Jones Beach before she took off on thursday. I love this girl so much. I can't believe we got so close so fast. I figure she would hate me after living with me for a year but it was like a nine month long sleep over and I can't wait to do it again!

I've always wanted to make this post.. hopefully nothing happens after I post this but

So there's this boy..

His name is Mike.. it's only been a month but he makes my heart skip a beat

I cannot wait to see him. I go back to Chicago July 15th to look for apartments with Sam so clearly i'll go spend time with him too

That's in 31 days in case you wanted to know.

This long distance is really really hard and I try not to worry that much but I do. I think we're making it work. We're both honest with each other and we talk every day and all day so.

Um I'm taking a summer English class so I can maybe graduate on time. Doubt that'll happen but you never know.

Sarah is coming for a week! June 30- July 7. Really really excited. I miss her and I need her.

This small apartment is really getting to me.. like reeeeeaaaallllyyyyy getting to me.

Summer has begun.

We are all settled into our new place with the exception of a few boxes in my room which need to go into storage.

It's weird living here. Whenever we would come to New York it meant vacation so now that I'm here I feel like I'm on vacation all the time which is sort of bad because I need to get a job and go to school. I'm taking classes at the same college my mom did which is kind of cool.

I'm going back to Chicago for a weekend to find an apartment with Sam. I'm so excited. I so miss it. I feel more at home than I do here. Terrible, but true.

I really love living so close to family. I've never had that. Ever.

Alright I thought I was going to write this really long post about summer and life but I don't think I have much else to say plus I'm wiped out from yesterday. It was my cousins communion so we had a party after and we were all outside playing baseball and volleyball and eating ALL DAY. Don't get me wrong, it was awesome but I'm sore and tired haha

Easter isn't a huge Holiday in the Kulin household but it's my first real holiday away from my family. A little sad but it's ok because I'm going to Sarah's aunts in Naperville tonight to sleep over and celebrate with them.

Big changes are happening in my life.

My dad has "settled" for the New York job. It's not what he does but at this point a job is a job and he's been out of one for 2 years now. Which means we have to move to Long Island. I've never lived near my family let alone in the same house. My aunt and uncle have an apartment attached to their house and are nice enough to let us stay there until we get back on our feet.

This also means I will not be returning to Colorado for a long time. Maybe even ever. I don't know when I'll see Jordan or Miranda. It breaks my heart. I mean they're my best friends and I don't know when I'll see them. Sometimes phones just aren't enough. I doubt they'll ever come here because Jordan is afraid of planes and Miranda.. is Miranda.

This is just always on my mind now. I have Sarah here and it's awesome but we rarely see each other because she's always so busy. And Sam (my roommate) I guess she's my best friend at school. I have her but she hasn't known me that long and she doesn't know why I am the way I am. You know?

Ok. This is depressing.

I apologize.

4 more days

4 more days

4 more days

IIIIII am so stressed

I just like my new layout

A lot.

:)

My show is over.

That was seriously the best show I've ever seen/ been apart of. I'm so in love with it. I wish I could've been apart of it from the beginning. I'm so sad it's over but I get to have my life back. Even though my life is theatre.. It's a bittersweet moment. I'm excited to get sleep. I don't know when that's going to happen but eventually.

This semester is significantly harder. I don't know what I'm doing in 3 of my 5 classes including the one where my math teacher can't speak english. Um we live in America? Ugh it's so frustrating. I'm scared to death to go to acting every day because I'm the shyest person ever. I seriously want to cry every time I think of that class. Tomorrow I have to perform a monologue. I wish I would've waited to take that class. Too late now.

On a brighter note, Spring break.. FLORIDA! I get to relax with my favorite people :) I think thats the next time I can sleep because I'm going home this weekend to help finish pack and say good bye to Jordan and Miranda for a little while. This weekend is going to be rough. I feel bad for Sam for when I come back. I'm going to be a mess.

Ok I guess I have no where else to vent but this.

It's really pissing me off that there a crisis over in Haiti and all people keep talking about is the stupid Jay Leno and Conan thing. Like really? That is taking up your thought process instead of the poor people of Haiti. They already had a poor country and then this had to happen to them.

ALSO the celebrities keep saying "Go donate!" If every celebrity gave $500,000 of their precious millions they made by sitting on a movie set, Haiti would have enough to help everyone and help start rebuilding their country. Um we're in a recession and they're telling the unemeployed people to give money. Believe me, if I had the money I would gladly donate but truth is I don't.

Sandra Bullock gave a million dollars yesterday. Hey the rest of you, take notice.

I have to let it out some how..

I'll let the first of the blog world to know.

I have found the love of my life.

I didn't want to jinx it, but I think it's time to let the love be known.

We've only been together since september, but I have a feeling this could be the one.

The short time between now and then has been nothing but bliss.

Yes, I am talking about my love for the world of technical theatre. At Columbia, I have explored a few other areas of theatre and have decided I love all of it but I still want to be a stage manager. Stress every night (minus mondays and 2 matinee's) is what I live for. I tend to be calm in those situations which makes this job perfect for me. The money will be tight but I will be doing what I love and not many people can say that now a days. With this economy people are taking the jobs they can get to have an income. I still have 2 1/2 years so hopefully the economy will be bounced back by then. Although, the theatre hasn't taken too big of hit. People need to laugh in these times of sadness and theatre can provide that.

On that note, I did FANTASTIC in school if I do say so myself.

I sucked at school in high school. Literally. I don't think i got above a 2.7 gpa ever.

I'm proud to say I got my first 3.26. It makes a huge difference when you like what you're studying.

After telling my parents and family, there's no where else to gloat and I'm proud of myself so even though no one reads this I'm doing this for myself :)

Ps. I can't wait to go back - 15 days.

Pps. Wisdom teeth on tuesday. Not excited.